For as long as I can remember I have had trouble sitting still. I always wanted to be doing something or engaging in some physical activity. I have many hobbies I enjoy and if something new comes along I’d like to experience, then of course I must pursue it. My Dad was the same why. He’d play, tinker and work all day until he tired himself out and was unable to do anymore then later in the afternoon would finally sit down or take a nap.
Now as an adult with my own private practice in holistic healing, I offer a variety of services. Massage, aromatherapy, watsu (water therapy) kid’s swim lessons, meditative hiking and kayak tours and also promote nutritional products. My mind is always going, coming up with new creative ideas. I am used to the flowing ideas at any given time and working on several projects at once going from one to another.
Recently I was feeling a bit overwhelmed and my husband reminded me that perhaps I was branching out into too many directions which may be contributing to my overwhelmed feeling. Maybe he was right. I’ve often called myself a jack of all trades. I began feeling that this was not a good thing and other “successful” business owners were more focused.
It finally occurred to me that I might be a bit ADD because I am always thinking and planning the next idea before finishing the first. Don’t get me wrong. I complete each task, I just jump around from one to another. After college I went to Graduate school then worked as an Art Therapist in a mental health facility but I burned out after 4 years. Then I started working as a personal trainer and fitness instructor in the gym I belonged to. I was always there anyway so why not get paid to be at the gym. I also loved gardening and my sister was a horticulturist so we decided to start our own business growing potted herbs and topiary. I learned a lot about the healing properties of herbs and it introduced me into aromatherapy. We didn’t make much of a living at it so eventually decided to move on. From there I went on to massage school which led me to training for watsu. See what I mean?
Now, my private practice is growing and I am amazed at how everything I do fits together, how past experiences have come together. I utilize every aspect of these experiences and employment everyday. I always followed my instincts. I never consciously planned the path I took. It just evolved.
There were many times I felt I was defective in some way because I couldn’t conform to the standard job setting role. “What was wrong with me?” I never had a clear understanding or desire that I wanted to be a healer when I grew up. I did realize over time that I was meant to help people somehow.
I am happy to be making money at doing what I love! I now pay more attention to my intuition and nature to guide me.
You know my affinity for exploring the signs in nature that are presented. Well, one day last week my husband and I went kayaking; as we came around a bend the giant bird flew up into a tree. As I focused on it I realized it was a Blue Heron. They have very long legs and beaks and wade in the marshy areas. It was beautiful to see one so close. A day or so later I went for a bike ride and I saw a shadow pass over me, when I looked up, there was a Blue Heron flying overhead. “Cool!” I thought to myself. Upon arriving home I pulled my bike into the shed and walked up to the back deck and looked up to see another Blue Heron flying overhead! Okay, I know this means something significant! Especially when it comes in three’s!
I immediately opened the book “Animal Speak” by Ted Andrews and read with awe. This is the significance of the Blue Heron; “Aggressive self-determination and self-reliance. The long legs are symbols of balance representing an ability to progress and evolve. The longer the legs the deeper the water the heron will feed. The deeper life can be explored. The long thin legs mean you don’t need great massive pillars to remain stable, but you must be able to stand on your own. It is important to explore various activities and dimensions of earth life. On the surface, this may seem a form of dabbling, but those with a Heron totem are wonderfully successful at being the traditional “jack of all trades.” This ability enables them to follow their own path. Most people will never be able to live the way heron people do. It is not a structured way and does not seem to have stability to it. Though, it is just a matter of perspective. It reflects the innate wisdom of being able to maneuver through life and control its life circumstances and follow their own innate wisdom. You know what is best for you.”
Wow! So I may be ADD but I’m not defective. I just have a little Blue Heron in my blood!
What animals do you keep seeing?